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Finding Strength
Hi Guys, I’m so glad you’ve been patient with me. Ever since I revealed that I was diagnosed with Cancer I keep hearing how “Strong” I am. At first I was baffled, “Where is this strength that people are seeing?” This is really just me. I would sit and listen and then stare at my reflection and look and look and try and see this strength everyone else was seeing. The fact is this woman cries, gets frustrated and throws tantrums. This woman absolutely gets afraid when she lays down to sleep and a voice says, “What if?”. I started feeling like maybe I was being a fraud. Was I…
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I Have Cancer
I wrote this awhile ago. I’ve kept it for when I finally feel like pressing send. Chances are by time I do make it public I would’ve had surgery already It’s the weekend before my surgery and I swear I’m having an out of body experience, everything is so surreal. I’ve prepared as much as possible and I’ve spent today cleaning and getting my apartment in order so when I get back it’ll be tidy. Cleaning might seem normal but this is important, this is something I can actually control and these days when I literally am just in a cycle of waiting, I’ll take whatever control I can get.…
